When you sleep at night, they don't hear your cries in your own world... - "Stay", Shakespears Sister

06-04-2007 09:23 AM

My life is difficult right now.  Even Second Life is making me feel bad.  I've spent about 11 hours on SL since noon, and I feel terrible for doing so.  I felt bad enough on SL because the leader of the TG center I spend all my time commented that I shouldn't have a relationship while I'm transitioning...which hurt me so much that I ended up logging off and napping for several hours to make the pain go away.  Then I woke up and ended up spending 8 consecutive hours there...and the pain never seemed to leave...it just came back and hurt as badly as before.  I probably would've stayed longer if I didn't run out to avoid a tranny chaser that wandered in.

I don't know what I'm supposed to feel right now, besides miserable.  SL ended up reminding me of the fact that I feel lonely.  I never spend time with anyone...and it hurts.

I don't want to type anymore, I really just want to cry...

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06-03-2007 07:27 PM

I don't feel any different than I did yesterday.  I feel like I am as reclusive as before, and even to a degree as lazy as I was before.  I didn't do much on Wikipedia yesterday and I didn't even log into Second Life for the first time until about 2 in the morning.  I spent most of my time on Second Life crying about how empty my life feels and complaining about it and bitching and what not...

And, of course, I spent yesterday creating this account.  The hope is that I will have positive blog entries to write in time.  *crosses fingers*  And, I'm hoping I won't feel quite so down while I'm here...after all, my best friend is here.

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06-02-2007 10:02 PM

This is my new personal place on the web.  I'm nervous about being here, but I know it will probably make things better in my life over time.  Not much else to talk about right now.

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